I Have No Idea Where to Post Anymore

1/19/2019

Do I even have an LJ anymore? I feel like that might be something gone from inactivity. Fifteen years’ worth of off and on again journaling might be gone. Oh well. Tumblr is a massive mess. Plus, I kind of just reblog random, unimportant junk on there more than anything else. Do I want to commit to something like WP? These are some of my concerns for the new year.

Along with some really crazy things happening in my personal life, my writing is still at an all-time low. I’ve tried to motivate myself but it’s a struggle and a long process. I feel like every time I get myself back to a good place mentally, something happens that knocks me right back to my basic foundations. 2018 seemed like one battle after another.

I’ve missed writing. I’ve missed the excitement of filling a blank screen or notebook. I’ve missed the feeling of completion as I found things to change or fix during the editing stages. But it just hasn’t been inside me. There hasn’t even been drive enough for something fun and uncomplicated like a piece of fan fiction to keep me occupied.

However, I have written down ideas and notes whenever something comes to me. It’s just been difficult gathering all the bits into an actual plot. So there’s that.

Also, in the past few days, I’ve had some promising ideas that will flesh out some of my projects that have been on the back burner for years. I don’t think I can put into words how much happiness that has brought me; just being able to focus enough and let the ideas come to me once again. Maybe it’s the super moon, or something. :)

Cross-blogged on my tumblr.

Happy New Year!

1/1/2018

Well, 2017 was a bit of a garbage fire, eh? One of the only good things about last year was my parents' health being somewhat stable and finally, FINALLY, publishing Calling of Blood.

So what now? As far as writing goes, I haven't started a new project yet. Made lots of notes for lots of different things, but have yet to commit. I've written some for fun. Nothing I'll publish for profit. Just stories to unwind and help detach from COB. I'm still trying to decide what to do next.

It's cold and horrible here. Nothing to do but read and write.

I hope everyone had a safe last few weeks. And I hope nothing but great things happen for you this coming year!

Calling of Blood

12/5/17

As stated previously, "Calling of Blood" is officially available for sale!

I know, I know. I just didn't think that an oily torso was the way to go for this book. :) https://smile.amazon.com/Calling-Blood-New-Earth-Book-ebook/dp/B077XRW29X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1512493437&sr=8-1&keywords=lale+baize

For those of you just passing through, or can't really remember what the first version, "An Indigo Feather," was about, here's the basic jist: This is, essentially, an M/M Sci-fi/Fantasy. I want to go further and tell you right now, it's M/M in the loosest sense. Some characters use he/him/his pronouns or she/her/hers but, honestly, that's for the reader's ease. A lot of the characters are hermaphrodites. There are a lot of characters that use they/them/theirs pronouns. Some characters are very fluid and their identities shift by whoever is describing them. This story explores a lot of themes on sexuality. There are a lot of themes of disability. 

If I could compare it to another author/s, I'd say Storm Constantine or Ursula K le Guin. 

The world of "Calling of Blood" is vast, hinting at histories spanning thousands of years. I love folklore, so I played around with the mythology of this world.

There are sex scenes but apparently nothing too graphic or frequent as, years ago, Loose Id was interested but only if I added more sex.

Essentially, if you like Science Fiction or Fantasy that spans about 443 pages, explores everything from sexuality to politics to disability, that has diverse characters and is all wrapped up in an M/M story, you might be interested in "Calling of Blood."

If you have any questions, feel free to ask.

***cross-posted on Tumblr.

The Ability to Let Things End

12/5/2017

"Art is never finished, only abandoned." ~ Leonardo da Vinci

Over the past few years, when I could seriously sit down to work, I have rewrote, cut and edited "An Indigo Feather" into what is now known as "Calling of Blood." It's true what writers say about themselves, when they're being honest with themselves. We are our worst critics. There is nothing I am more self-conscience of, and yet so confident of, than my writing. Sure, I make errors and rereading and editing are still SUPER IMPORTANT, but I've never really told myself to give up, to find something else to.

Writing is, honestly, the only thing I feel I can do. I have to do. I like to write. I like to put down all of the ideas that pop into my head. I love when I create something I've been searching for in a bookstore because I have yet to find it.

But I need to learn to let things go. Stop editing and let a piece be.

And so, this post is to let everyone know that "Calling of Blood" is officially "abandoned." :) I've edited it as much as possible. I've cut as much as I dare. I sat for an hour or so putting in a linked up table of contents.

Finally, it's finished. As of now, it is available on Amazon through the Kindle Store. Look up Lale Baize.

I am super excited but also kind of terrified. I'll post more information soon but I just wanted to let everyone know who's been waiting for this that there is a copy up for sale.


*cross-posted on Tumblr.

Inside the Writer's Head #6

2/20/17

Inside the Writer's Head #6 – Is there a trope you wouldn’t touch with a ten foot pole?

I don't really want to say something is completely off the table. Who knows what one will find them doing in the future? However, I think it is safe to say I will probably never go near any idea found in what I like to call Dick Lit. You know the type. Average, Ordinary Nice Guy or Awesome, Amazing Action Guy, who does everything right and gets the equally boring, but hot, girl in the end of whatever they find themselves doing. But that's not really my style anyway. Unless it's a parody. Then I might. But probably not.

Inside the Writer's Head #5

6/25/16

Inside the Writer's Head #5 – Describe your comfort zone story-wise.

I stick with Fantasy and Horror, for the most part. Under those umbrellas, I'd say that my flavor is of Fusion Fiction. I can't help adding a little bit of everything to most of my stories. Fantastical Horror with some action, a bit of mystery usually with a dash of romance (if the story takes that route) and, if I can work it in, Science Fiction. Definitely a Fusion Fiction kind of writer.

I like to write about characters that are not physically and/or mentally ideal. Disabilities, characters that aren't just white, non-hetero relationships, non-hetero sexuality, dark story lines, non-traditional endings—I really like to explore and am happiest writing. Whenever I try to write something more mainstream, something always sneaks its way in; be it a character death or someone gets maimed. :) I'm a bit like CLAMP in that way. If someone doesn't lose an eye, I haven't completed the story!

cross-posted on Tumblr

An Apparent Habit of Mine

5/12/16

I don't mean to, but I have noticed over the last couple of months of rereading, editing and writing that most of what I do could arguably be seen as an obvious allegory for sexual identity. Or it seems obvious to me. Apparently, I like to explore sexuality and disabilities. Oh well. I can think of worse things I could be obsessed with. ^_______^